Just a Post That You Might Not Want to Read

This is like the emotional side of me. 

So if you're not up for it, this post isn't for you to read.

So a couple of days ago, my aunt passed away due to last stage breast cancer.

As much as I am sadden by this news, it feels okay.

Okay for her to go because I know she's just going to the best place, heaven.

You see, people stay when they can and have to stay, but when their time is up, they have to go anyway. I think when someone you love dies, it can be the saddest thing that happened to you ever or it can be something that makes you stronger as a person or even both.

But for one thing, when I looked at the memories we had, the lives we shared as a family, I don't think I can love her any better than how I did or do. And that is simply good enough.

So many times we are taught to not let go the person that we love. Other time, we are taught that loving is letting go. But to me, loving is always letting go. Letting go of mistakes and pain to be able to accept the joy in life and of course, letting go of the mistakes of your love ones or in others words, to forgive. And the most important part is, letting you loved ones to be who they are, which is an act of letting go too. I think that is the hardest part, because we all have our expectations. But when you just focus on loving someone and being kind, it gets easier. :) 

So I've lost an aunt who means like a mother to me. That may be is my loss but the heaven has gained her so that is something that I'm very thankful for. I believe she's in good hands and it didn't matter how I feel, honestly cause I care more for how she must have felt. Going through the pain, the waiting. Painful for us to watch. I guess that is what cancer is, it doesn't only throw a tornado at the lives of the patients but their families as well. But at the same time, I feel like cancer can be a blessing in disguise. If my aunt didn't have cancer, I may not appreciate her presence in my life like how I did during her last few months. I may not hug and kiss her like how I did too. So all in all, life is still good. And like always, I am forever thankful. Thnak you, God! :)