You May Not Wanna Read This

Hmm. My life had been going upside down these few days. I think I've been having bad days in a row this few weeks. Super duper bad. But I don't think I am doomed, YET.

Haven't been talking to Pandi for quite some time now. 

Reasons are(maybe):

1. His phone broke down. Ouch!
2. He doesn't feel like talking to me anymore
3. He's in lousy mood
4. Im getting boring
5. He's bored/sicked of me already. How sad.
6. Well, there's always a start and an end

 I don't exactly know how to feel about this. Honestly, it's sad. You know at times when you're talking to someone about something that matters to you and it's like you're talking to a wall at the other side. Hmm. And I wished he would have told me if he had a bad day and wanna be on his own, I would have just stepped back but it was more like zzzzzzz. And I guess he sorted of realised that we're the type of friends who talked to each other almost everyday but never really hang out. Haha. Like pen pals. LOL.

At times I do wonder at myself, why do I even bother to tell him how my days were and stuff that mattered to me anyway... What was I thinking? I feel embarrassed but oh well, it was past so I'll let bygones be bygones. Gotta move on! 

 

I guess in life, nothing is permanent. When something good happens to you, enjoy it, treasure it because it won't always be that way. And when it's gone, I guess you just gotta treasure that. Speaking of my friendship with Pandi, we don't really have any memories. LOL. Like I've said, we're pen pals. Haha. Modern version of pen pals who used BBM and Whatsapp. 

But I guess I'll just treasure the memories of me giggling at his funny texts. Haha. Okay, that's something. :) I sort of had a hunch that Mr.Pandi is having a hard time with his thesis and other things as well. But he's not the type who would tell me if he had it rough or what. I don't understand why some people tend to do that. Maybe because he feels weird telling me those. LOL. I mean, like I've said, we're just pen pals. :)  Wonder if he ever thinks of me as a friend. Hmm. Maybe yes maybe not.

 

Hmm. I like talking to Mr.Pandi. But I guess he has stopped liking to talk to me. hahaha.

Which is bad but okay. Whatever makes him happy.

I'm happy when people around me are happy.

When they're sad, I'll just find something else to be happy for. :) 

 

All in all, it's okay I guess. I didn't tell Mr.Pandi that I'm sad about this because I don't wanna make him feel bad. Maybe even if i told him, he won't feel bad a tall. I don't wanna make people feel bad.

 I guess, I'm the type who always let people go. It's my way of loving people I guess. To love is to liberate that person. If he needs to go, then off he goes. If he can't stay, it's fine too. :)

 

I'm just gonna stand strong holding onto my faith I guess, every time I lose something, I will gain something else better in return. Like if your hands are so full and you're holding onto everything, you can never be able to receive something else right? Something like that I guess. :)  

 

But then I am always grateful. That I had a pretty awesome friend and rant spot, at one point of my life. :) 

The End of Sem2, Well Almost

Exam is over baby! *tears of joy* 

The last 2 weeks have been stressful,tiring and sleepless. My dark circles.*tears*  I feel like I look like a panda. See.. heesh dark circles.. (T.T)

Speaking of a panda, hehehe. 

Come to think of it, my dark circles actually make my eyes look bigger. LOL.

And I actually like pandas because they're so cute that I feel like doing this.. *see the pic below*

Hehehe XD

Poor panda. :(

Okay back to the story.

Semester 2 had been great, I think. Never thought I survived but I guess you only know your own strength when you're forced to be strong. 

Classes were long, lab sessions were fun but not all of them, anatomy was hard and very stressful. The rest was okay, I think. I had 4 lab sessions for semester 2 which was quite heavy but we all managed to get by. :) *clap clap*

Stuff I did during semester 2: 

*ready, get set, go!*

1) I eat a lot

Yeap, being a foodie that I am, I just love eating. Trying out new food was quite fun too. I mostly cooked my own meals because I think it's healthier. The food they have here especially in restaurant has MSG in it. Hmm. I'm not a fan of MSG. Often, eating out makes me wanna gulp down 1 litre of water because of the taste of MSG. Overall, the food in Jogja is cheap. Groceries are cheap too, I love that so much.

*Beware. Foodporn posts*

Food I cooked

If you notice, I normally eat brown rice. :) I love brown rice. But I eat white rice too. I don't mind. I just love brown rice because it is healthier. :)

Chicken and mushroom with oyster sauce 

I cooked curry a lot. :) I put tofu in. Haha. Whatever. Can eat then good enough. :)

I'm more intp eating homemade food than eating out. But at times, I'm too busy and too tired for that so I eat out too. And I enjoy eating out too. Hehe

Restaurant/cafe/ warung food 

Asian parsley. Not bad for me. :)

Ayam kerabu and salad buah at Kedai Nyonya, somewhere in Malioboro. Love the ambience of that restaurant. :) Food was okay. 

Yeap, my favorite in Dixie Restaurant in Gejayan. :) #addicted 

Pork satay haha. Hardly get to eat pork in Jogja, sadly. So if you're coming here, go have pork eating spree before coming here. Haha. :)

Ice-creams at Mary Anne. :) Love that place. 

For more updates bout food, can check out my instagram :)

2) I got to know my friends better

We all need friends. Good friends do make life better. We hang out more often for makan session. Hehe. I blame the stress for that. :) 

3) I studied more than I did during first sem

Haha. More subjects, more labs, more pretests to study for, so yeeahhh...

4)I ride bike

If I never come to Indonesia, I will never learn how to ride bike. It was hard and I fell down a lot. I've gone through accidents twice. Yup, it was nothing major. Just that my finger has scars now. *so ugly* But hey at least I still have fingers right? Hehe. #grateful 

In conclusion, sem2 was fine. Not gonna complain about all the stuff that went wrong too. :) I'm glad that it was done. There'll be more to come. I can't say I will miss my sem 2. School, you're not missed. *enjoying holiday aka sleeping sprees * hahaha

Till then, toodles. :)

  

Just a Post That You Might Not Want to Read

This is like the emotional side of me. 

So if you're not up for it, this post isn't for you to read.

So a couple of days ago, my aunt passed away due to last stage breast cancer.

As much as I am sadden by this news, it feels okay.

Okay for her to go because I know she's just going to the best place, heaven.

You see, people stay when they can and have to stay, but when their time is up, they have to go anyway. I think when someone you love dies, it can be the saddest thing that happened to you ever or it can be something that makes you stronger as a person or even both.

But for one thing, when I looked at the memories we had, the lives we shared as a family, I don't think I can love her any better than how I did or do. And that is simply good enough.

So many times we are taught to not let go the person that we love. Other time, we are taught that loving is letting go. But to me, loving is always letting go. Letting go of mistakes and pain to be able to accept the joy in life and of course, letting go of the mistakes of your love ones or in others words, to forgive. And the most important part is, letting you loved ones to be who they are, which is an act of letting go too. I think that is the hardest part, because we all have our expectations. But when you just focus on loving someone and being kind, it gets easier. :) 

So I've lost an aunt who means like a mother to me. That may be is my loss but the heaven has gained her so that is something that I'm very thankful for. I believe she's in good hands and it didn't matter how I feel, honestly cause I care more for how she must have felt. Going through the pain, the waiting. Painful for us to watch. I guess that is what cancer is, it doesn't only throw a tornado at the lives of the patients but their families as well. But at the same time, I feel like cancer can be a blessing in disguise. If my aunt didn't have cancer, I may not appreciate her presence in my life like how I did during her last few months. I may not hug and kiss her like how I did too. So all in all, life is still good. And like always, I am forever thankful. Thnak you, God! :) 

Costs of Studying In Indonesian University (UGM)

So you wanted to do be a doctor/dentist/vets/pharmacy?

Cabut gigi 1 bayar RM80. Haha. *kacing-kacing*, the sound of the the coins dropping. Haha

*belai gigi patung dragon* LOL *irrelevant* apakah aku peduli? Jawapan: tidak. Hahaha. *so vain*

Back to the topic..

You're probably thinking how and where and bla bla bla..

Basically you will have to sit for the entrance exams and go by agency.

I went by Medic ProLink to apply for UGM but I also went by KLC Placement 

They have a variety of Indonesian universities, you can check them out.

In case you don't know(or didn't read my previous blog posts), I'm currently a 1st year dental student in UGM. My course is not the International course but a regular one which means I'm in the same class with my Indonesian batchmates. If you're asking the language used then it will be in Bahasa Indonesia. Is it hard? Yes. But I'm still standing. Haha. If others can do it then so can I. Jia you jia you!

 For dentistry, pharmacy and veterinary medicine, the classes are conducted in bahasa Indonesia. The fees are stated above. Fees are paid by semester. 

Estimation (Tuition Fees Only)

Dentistry: 45juta rupiah per sem X 11 semesters = 495 juta (~RM 141k)

Pharmacy: 45juta per sem X 8 semesters= 360 juta (~RM 103K)

Veterinary Medicine: 24 juta X 11 semesters = 264 juta (~RM 75K)

For medicine course, the classes are in English because it is an international programme.

Estimation (Tuition Fees Only)

Medicine: 60 juta X 7 + 65 juta X 4 = 680 juta rupiah (~RM194K)

For more information regarding this course, Click Here 

The S1 fee is for the theoretical studies whereas the 65 juta is for KOAS fees. KOAS = clinical year

*The rates above are calculated based on RM1 ~ IDR 3500 and not inclusive of bank charges

Note: Fees may increase yearly

Extra charges

For those who's under MedicPro, normally you will automatically paying for the 24months fees. It'll be inclusive in your service charges. :)

Now to the living cost, ....

Honestly the food here is cheap. But if you're into budget type then it'll be cheaper to buy and make your own food. RM700 will make do for a month. Of course you can go a bit lower than that but it all depends on your spending attitude. Movie tickets are cheap too. 40K IDR for weekends and 30K IDR for weekdays. Not bad I would say. And Jogja has so many varieties of eating place with varieties f prices to match too. :)

If you're interested in knowing the life of a dental student here, feel free to read my other posts and check out my twitter or instagram. :)

Thanks for reading.

Mom, Mother, Madre (Happy Mother's Day)

I am so very happy. 

I am so loving my week.

Because tomorrow my class starting at 10 a.m. !!

That means I can sleep at 12 and wake up at 7 in the morning! Hooray! 

Which is very rare. My class usually starts at 7 and finished at 3 or longer if we have lab sessions on that day. Hm,.

Tomorrow will be a "thank God it's Monday" kinda day.

That is why I can actually sit in front of my laptop writing out this entry.

If not... hahaha.. My blog will be so not updated. #howsad

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Anyway, back to today's event.. Mother's day!

And I guess everyone would be writing about their moms. 

Haha.

So you prolly expect me to do the same. 

And..

YOU"RE RIGHT!

*if you think it will be boring, it's fine, you don't have to read it, I'm writing this for myself anyway*

And oh I think it's useless to compare whether your mom is better than someone else's mom or you're a better mom than ther moms.

Heard of this quote?..  "Every mom is the best for their kids"

By : My mom( like seriously!)

Which is why you prolly never heard of that quote before. Oppsie. Hahaha

Those were the words that she said when I told her that she's the best mom I can ever have.

Of course, that quote may not apply to children going through domestic violence. (Things like that always break my heart) But still, mom is right. Maybe not entirely correct but she is right. Parenting is hard. So much sacrifices made. So much love. But you know your own child and you do what's best for them. :)

And for everything, mom, I can't never say thank you enough, for everything you've done for me. For the wisdom that you gave me. For the kindness that you've shown even when I was being more stubborn than a mule. The grace that you gave when I was wrong. The memories we have, the laughs, the tears.. I can't never replace that with anything else in this world. Those memories are precious. 

As much as I love you, and you'll always be the queen of my heart, I am very blessed to have nanny. I love her too. :)

So happy Mother's day, one to the queen of my heart, my mom and the other mother I have who have loved me like her own and obviously I love her back too, nanny/ nanay, mahal mahal nak kita. :)

Life is short.

Gotta love life and the people in it.

Especially those that matters.

Like family. :)

Hope you have a good day. :)

With my muka busuk

Good morning to me! *belum mandi*

I'm so happy because it's very rare for me to get enough sleep during weekdays. 

Not rare honestly but almost impossible. #lifeofadentalstudent
 Haha. Samalah tu kan? *lantaklah*

Last week had been super hectic due to juggling my studies, labs and pretests and TKG (Teknologi Kedokteran Gigi) stuff that I had to redo twice! Bad luck. =,=

Anyway, I finally did my second denture! Hahaha. 

But it's kinda ugly.

Hahaha.

I think I need more practice. Hahaha.

Well what can you expect when you're to make it with some old fashion method, right?

This is a gyps model (Model bawah), the resin (pink part is the resin)

So basically, we have to break the gyps to get the resin.

Terserah lah what you want to use to break the gyps.

I used hammer. Hahaha.

Kontra model. 

Nah, after getting your resin. It'll be something like this. So you'll have to wash it and do a bit of finishing and polishing using a minidrill and arkansas stone. 

(not yet hooglans because I haven't done my finishing and polishing..hahah)

Hooglans = shiny (for dentures)

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By the way, I have just finished my Anatomy review yesterday evening. 

In case you're wondering how Anatomy review is...

It's like you're given the bones. 

It can be real or fake bones, human bones and then u have to tell every single part of the bones to the Anatomy lab assistant, the muscles, the nerves, the arteries and the veins that go through every single foramen and bla bla bla. The functions of the muscles, origo or incersio..

 If you get it wrong, the lab assistant will correct you. If nasib buruk and you get those super garang lab assistant.. OH NO.

It was hard. I tell you.

And the lab assistant will challenge you to see if you're confident with your answers or not.

*STRESS!!!*

The terms are according to the international standard on human anatomical terminology developed by Federative International Committee on Anatomical Terminology (FICAT) so all the terms would be in latin. 

So even when your textbooks are using antomical terms in English, you will have to translate it into latin. Sometimes I feel like my brain is my version of Google Translate. I always translate from English to Bahasa Indonesia or latin (for Anatomy only) and vice versa. :) 

By the way, if you think for Anatomy you'll only be learning head and neck then you'll be very dissappointed. 

Here, according to our syllabus, we have to learn the whole body that includes the system and everything.

So basically you're both medical and dental student. Haha. Geddit?

But one thing that being a dental student in UGM, we're used to be under so much stress. 

Haha.

Juggling 14 subjects, pretests and 4 labs per week. 

Show you my exam card. In case you think I'm kidding you. HAHA.

If mentally you're not strong enough, then you would'nt be able to survive.

If by personality means you're a loner and the type who studies and not caring about the rest of the people, you hardly can survive too. Because the way things are here, it's just too hard and too much to handle it on your own. A lot of times, you need help. And you gotta love what you do to be able to persevere. 

Last but not least, I'm so thankful to have friends who helped me throughout the times. 

THANK YOU!

I Never Thought..

I never thought I would got into an accident while riding my scooter last Saturday. It was just another ordinary day.

I never thought the owner who owned the car that I hit would just let me off without asking me to fork out a single cent for the damage I've done. Oh maybe it was not entirely my fault but still, that was nice.

I never thought the wound I have on my middle finger was deep and I actually needed stitches. The cut was up to my tissue and almost kena my bone. *eew*

Haha. Took this pic while having dinner with friends. Pandai betul. Lepas accident masih boleh jalan keluar makan. What to do. Lapar bah.

I never thought the daughter of the owner of the car I hit would have told me that someone is casting black magic to my family. I was like,"I'm sorry, what?" *blur face* Somehow I believed her. But I wasn't afraid at all because I know our God is so much stronger and He is always bigger than fear.

I never thought I would be so happy and sad to see my seniors graduating. :)

Especially the ones who are closed to my heart.

Tada! They've made it! *YAYS* 

*no caption* lazy

I never thought I would feel at home here in Jogja. Having people who are kind and nice was such a great blessing.

This is us attempting to take a selfie. Squeeze people! Move ya head! 

Tips: the person who should take the pic is the one who has the longest hands. Haha.

The xiao mui and da gor :) and Ah Liang the photobombed =,=

Big smile while squeezed in between 2 tally-s. 

I feel short. T.T

The so-called still dashing Mr.Bond-kononnya aka Rufus anne and his Bond girls. Hahaha. 

Do the gun hand! *whateva*

Feels weird not seeing them anymore. :)

And and and

I never thought doing denture is so freaking hard!!! 

But hey I made one. 

Biarpun jelek. Hehe. Not bad for a start.

Practice makes perfect.

I never thought I would have a crush on my good friend. Haha. But yeah, as expected, he didn't like me back. *I heard something breaking..my heart... ouch*

But hey, as long as he's happy and me, I already am happy anyway, for now, with or without him. :)

I never thought I would look okay in my selfie with a bandaged middle finger. Haha.

Excuse the dark circles. Had a pretty crazily hectic week therefore lacked of sleep.

 Thank God I survived.

Kay kay, that's it for now. Till laters, toodles. 

Trophy Sister

Some of you never have a sister and maybe wishing to have one.

Some of you may have a sister and wish you have none.

Me?

What can I say?

I have a trophy sister.

A sister who used to be my biting toy when I was teething as a baby.

A sister who protected me from bullies in school.

A sister who loved me and shopped for me.

A sister who always stood up for me.

A sister who is like a lioness in terms of protecting me.

A sister who calls the guys who try to fool around with me "assholes". hahaha

A sister who of course, gives me a list of the stuff she wants when I told her "I'm buying you what you want" in just a few minutes. Haha.

LOVE YOU TONNES!

Rachel Yunus you're the best.

Glad we actually share the same surname.

Sad Story of My Life

Just found out that my crush likes someone else and all I can think of, "whew, that girl is very lucky. " :) Wish you both happiness.

Then, I feel sad. *heartbreaks*

It's okay. I guess it isn't meant to be. Well, whatever makes you happy.

My Not Exactly New Home Nest - Accomodation in Jogja

Bulaksumur Residence (Bsr) had been the first home I got ever since I came to Jogja. It was okay. Not exactly homey but hey what can you expect from a hostel,right? Nevertheless, the uncles or who we call "bapak" were nice and helpful. I never had problems with them when I was living there. I made really cool and helpful friends and love them :) . For UGM students (Malaysians or from other countries), normally Bsr is the place where you stay when you get here for girls. For guys, you'll be living in Cemara Residence. Living in Bsr was okay. Having friends around to hang out with and a very kind roomie, I was very thankful. Good thing about everyone staying at one place is that you don't have to travel, get a cab or ojek (motorbike taxi) just to get to another place just to see your friends and when you need their help. So save $$. 

But here's the thing about living in Bsr, the contract was only for a year. The fees for the hostel is included in your tuition fees (for Malaysians studying in FKU, FKG, FKH and FF). So after your contract is done, you have to move out. And for my case, I decided to move out before I finish my contract. You may think I'm wasting my parents money by moving out so soon but yeah oh well.. Save your thoughts for yourself..haha

Anyway, here's the link if you're interested in knowing. Bulaksumur Residence

So I moved out to a new kost in Pogung Baru. Not that far from Bsr actually and it's only 7 minutes scooter ride to my faculty (FKG - Fakultas Kedokteran Gigi). 

Main entrance of the hostel (Indonesians here call it 'kost' or 'kosan')

See the gate at the left hand side?

Now that is the gate for the garage (see the picture below)

So this is where I can park my scooter. I think that's safer. :) Which is why I like this kost.

The kost has 3 floors: ground floor (garage) and pantry, 1st floor is for the rooms and a shared living room and fridge, 2nd floor is where there're more rooms and a small spot to dry your clothes,in case you choose to wash your own laundry.

Now to the rooms....

Hehehehe

Very comfy bed I love :) (it was included, new some more :) )

From another angle, hmm, I need an organizer for my TKG stuff, they're in the green box.

Plasma TV is included. I tried to tell the bapak to take it out and give me discount for the monthly rent but yeah it was an attempt at subterfudge, sadly. :( He said it was included. So yeah whatever, just take it then.

Attached bathroom of course. :)

Smart system on top of that. :) Not exactly a necessity but well it's imcluded ...

And water dispensor (shared) and wifi too but no hot water. :(

The reason why I moved out of Bsr earlier than I was supposed to was because I felt like I needed my own space. Sharing a room with an awesome roomie I had was fine. It's just that I do miss having that freedom of just wearing less clothing or very little and not caring about whether people will see me or not. (Yeah i'm a liberal type. Yang penting comfortable and happy, ya uda)

Plus, I have 13 subjects for this semester to juggle, top up 4 labs that I have to work hard for every single week. And after my midterm finished, I'll be having my integrasi kuliah and it'll be even more hectic than now. I don't think finding a kost and moving out by then is convenient. And I love this kost, my current nest. :) 

The other option if living in a kost is not your choice then it would be renting a house with few friends. We call that "kontrakan" here and usually you have to pay the rent yearly. For a house with 4 to 5 bedrooms it's around 40 million juta IDR and above per year depending on the area. :)

I wanted that too. Living in a house with friends would have been nice. It's cheaper than staying in the kost. But after thorough consideration, I decided that it may not be a wise choice for me. 

Think of it this way, if you stay in a house, you have to maintain your own house. Clean your own house. So let's say you're willing to do that, well let's just hope your housemates are willing too. Next, pay your utility bills yourself. That is heading to the office to settle the bills. If you end up with friends who use more electricity and water but not willing to fork out extra money, then it'll be hard for you. Not to say I don't trust my friends. I think it's more to people being people. When it comes down to money, I've seen people doing the most cruel thing in the world.

Second, your safety. Living in  your own house means no penjaga satpam (security guard). Granted, the area you're living in may have satpam but it may be as effective as having a satpam who stays in the kost and also takes care of the kost in terms of cleaning and maintaining the kost. And I just had a senior who has a friend who almost got stabbed while she was getting out of her kost. Thank God she was safe. Things like this happened, regardless of where you are in this world. I'm not telling you stuff like this to scare you, if you're a prospective student for UGM but I'm just gonna tell you the reality. :)

So really, be safe. And if you're interested in coming to UGM to further study. Please make sure that you know how to ride a bicycle at least and if you can, learn how to ride a bike or a scooter. It will be very useful. Don't be like me. Didn't learn how to drive because I always had people driving me around and my dad was super duper protective. :) I didn't even know how to cycle. *facepalm* And I came here and voolah... I had to learn how to ride a scooter and the traffic here is scary but you'll get used to it. :)

And oh, yeah I'm riding without a license. Haha. 

I plan to get one soon. :)

(You must be thinking... ish ish ish budak ni bawa motor tak pakai lesen.. hahaha)

Last but not least, me, from my happy nest :) 

  

See ya laters. I have to study for my next papers. :)

Restaurant Review: Kedai 3 Nyonya, Jogja

Kedai 3 Nyonya boasts Peranakan food that is so close to the taste of a homemade food to me, being an asian. Situated in jln. Jend. Sudirman in Jogja and a having a few other outlets in Jakarta, Bali and Surabaya, Kedai 3 Nyonya is a must try restaurant around Jogja.  It also has been on the list for Indonesia's Best Restaurant since 2005. 

I love the design of this restaurant. From the menu, the ambience and the decorations, everything is so detailed and very nyonya-ish.

I did not take the picture of the restaurant ambience. *sorry*

Well, here are the pictures of the food I ordered. :)

I'm not sure the name of this dish but it's something called Rojak salad buah, I think. It's a mix of fruits. Very refreshing. Worth a  try.

I LOVE THIS DISH. Called ayam kerabu. Very spicy though.

See the magazines?

They have mags to keep their customers entertained (for those who love to read) .. 

And oh, did I mention that the dishes are MSG free. So yays for that. Cheers for healthy food people! :)

For more information (photos and prices), check out the link below.
/http://www.kedai3nyonya.com/